This is What Help Feels Like

I think I might drown

From the weight on my shoulders

Expectations,

Hopes,

Dreams.

I want to meet them

I need to meet them

The lines are hazy

I can’t see clearly

I don’t know what’s good for me

And I don’t care

I can’t stop

I don’t matter,

Only my goals do

I’m going too fast

Colors are blurring

I’m hearing sounds I can’t make out,

Running

Through the foggy horizon

Voices call out,

Telling me I need to do more

Be better

Stay on top of everything

And for once,

I stop.

For once,

I open up,

Letting someone take my burden

I don’t feel like I’m giving up

I don’t feel ashamed

I don’t feel like I failed

I feel lighter,

Happier

And I wish I had done it sooner.