Why

Why is it so hard for you

To admit when you're wrong?

Why can't you say the two words that

Mean everything

To me?

"I'm sorry".

Would it really be that hard?

Couldn't you do it?

For me?

Or "I love you."

If you even do

Anymore.

If you ever did

At all.

I care about you

So much

And I've said it

To you

To everyone who will listen

Because no one will silence

How I feel

And I'm tired of being in denial.

Years

of 

this.

But you

Insist on it.

Why is it so hard to confess?

Why chase all the other girls

Who you drop almost instantly?

Why does the cycle you're in keep repeating?

Meaningless partner after meaningless partner

And you know I will always

Mean more to you

Than they do.

But you won't say it.

Why?

Why can't you?

QueenBee

VT

14 years old

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