Why Fight Through The Struggles?

I am a girl.
I am a student.
I am a representative of the "dream-daughter."
But...
Why?
Why should I try so hard to impress the unimpressable?
I am wrong.
I am not trying hard enough.
I am forgetfulness.
I am wrong.
I am bad.
I am not enough.
So why do I feel responsible?
Why, when it's their expectations that scare me so much?
And why am I so scared to fail?
And to fall into the darkness that threatens to shove all other feelings into a little box in the farthest corner of my mind.
Why do I fight when it would be so much easier to give in to the pain.
Why?