Thrive from the sea

My bike glides through the glistening reflection of the trees in the puddle             

I push my leg down with all of my strength 

I can feel my mind drifting through the sea of my thoughts

 questioning if we will make it 

My thoughts are like a current 

Pushing against me 

All I need is the motivation to keep going 

Even that has started to sink into the void of my mind 

All I hear is my bike bumping against the rocky path 

The wind drifts up my nose 

Spreading oxygen deep into my brain 

Filling it full with life 

With energy 

I can see the lake inside my mind 

the oxygen I breathe releases over that lake 

The lake seems sad

Plaintive even 

Like something has happened here

Something that has corrupted it forever 

I don't know if someone died 

Or it just aged wrong 

Whatever it is 

I can feel the sorrow 

Then I remember 

My mind is the sea 

All the boats that have sailed on it in the past few years sunk                    

Some of my soul has sunk 

Buried by the sand of my smiles 

All I have left 

Is my writing 

The words that sail across the storms 

Through the darkest nights when I can't sleep 

I lay awake in the boat of my home 

The words gush out onto my paper 

My feelings 

My dreams 

My fears 

For this is how I live 

This is how I keep my balance on those rocky waves 

I don't give in 

I put up the sail and thrive from the wind 

My boat is strong and so am I 

I just need to believe in the boat 

I need the boat to believe in me