And

I read something recently. It hit me really hard, actually. I kind of stared at my iPad screen for a moment, blinking through the mist in my eyes. Because, guys, seriously, this was such a game changer. 

What it said was: you are the AND, not the OR.  

Did that grip my heart like a fist and crush it into a pulp. Wowza. I was—I was emotional, folks. Gosh. It's really something to find something like this. You are the AND, not the OR. You can be both of these things. Both beautiful and smart, both kind and unkind, both hurting and happy, both perfect and imperfect. Because that's just how it goes, isn't it? Emotions are so very difficult to control and to understand. Sometimes, even the back of your throat while the best of your life flies by, is a tiny little lump of spite, of fear, of heartache. We're all human. That's just how it is. 

God. My head is still spinning. My heart is still fluttering. My hands just stopped shaking. So, to share my emotional rollercoaster with y'all, I have to say: you're beautiful. So freaking perfectly imperfect. Both amazing and awesome. 

Have a day that is as confusingly human as you are. Which means, of course, have a weird, wonderful, hilarious, heart wrenching, stomach clenching, horrible, awesome day. 

Merry Christmas, 
Infinite. 

infinitelyinfinite3

MT

17 years old

More by infinitelyinfinite3

  • Salad


    I am standing in the bathroom, looking at myself in the mirror 

    Eating salad, the leaves all droopy and curled

    I like how my collarbones look in this shirt

    The one I told my mom I didn’t like 
  • I'm Back

    I'm back--who knows for how long
    I've put breath and sweat and tears into projects that do not serve me
    I am tired, my stomach overripe with angry, boiling resentment
    Thick citrus, biting my insides with bubbling teeth