do you overthink things?
my therapist asks.

yes,
i reply,
but everyone does.

i'm not talking about everyone. i'm talking about you.

i am everyone,
i tell her.

how so?

well, scientifically, we are searching for a unified theory, right? a therory that would unite all observations, explain our world. but if the logic is sound, then the theory itself would predict the outcome of our search for it. that is where discovery and curiosity would lead us. we're humans-we're curious. however, we're limited by perception. every recorded observation of our universe has been through experience, and with experience, there come predetermined boundries. we process everything from within. how do we prove anything is real outside our own heads? we're just walking, talking brains, made of the same stuff as stars. the very laws of nature that restrict our self-constucted picture of the universe also determine our behaviour. nothing within us deviates from trends set by neuronic interaction. we love to promote induviuality, yet there is nothing unique about humans as a species, as a form of nature. science. nothing but science. and not even science we can comprehend; human nature is far too complex to be understood by humans. to be free means only we determine what happens to us, not why. our desire to escape this flow is yet another way we fall victim to the cycle. we are similar in our singluarity. we are connected by lonliness.

later, i hear her tell my parents,
take away her books.