Anymore

I don't know you anymore.

I learned this

Today.

Gone is the silly boy

As tall as I was

That purple beanie obsession

We all shared -

Tank tops in summer, Crocs all year round,

Not anymore.

Now it's...I don't know what it is.

The way your voice has shifted deeper?

How freakishly tall you've grown?

The confidence.

Less silly,

More snarky -

I know this happens,

But not having spoken to you for

Like

A year

And then 

Suddenly

This.

From a stranger's perspective -

It's a big change.

I don't know you anymore.

I used to.

I don't really care so much about that part -

It's okay.

I've been through wrecked friendships before.

And we're chill, aren't we?

I think all the little shifts

Just seemed like a lot.

Made me realize

That everyone is growing up

Not just you

And fast.

Faster than I want to.

We used to be non-awkward

And fun.

Not

Anymore.

QueenBee

VT

14 years old

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