You were there

You were there.

You were always there.

You were there for me

When I couldn't be there

For myself.

You took care of me.

You came running and jumping onto my bed

When I cried -

Alerting your keen ears

To my heartbreak

Ache

Pain.

When I couldn't handle the world

Alone.

You were there.

You were

Always 

There.

Thunderstorms.

How the thunder scared you.

How I held you

Safe

In my room

In my fluff cocoon

Until we were both okay.

When I would cry into my pillow

Over things I couldn't change

People I couldn't change -

One in particular -

And you kneaded the blankets over my back,

Purred,

Nuzzled against me.

It's gone.

It's gone and it's never coming back.

How do I live without my second half?

How do I live without my best friend?

Who will share the lonely nights with me?

Who will help me fall asleep when some nights the stress gets to me and I just can't because my thoughts won't leave me alone?

Who will annoy the heck out of me

By clawing at my door to get in

And then scratching at it a second later

To get back out?

My door is silent now.

My room is silent.

My heart is silent

Cold

And empty.

You were there.

How could I even begin to grieve something this huge?

QueenBee

VT

13 years old

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