E.B. Pointy-Pen

Why does it feel
like I'm being pushed back to the
lonely
unpredictable
days of 2020

The Spring was a beginning of
something no one knew about
it was strange and confusing
and made me hurt with longing 

Halloween is almost here.
We are decorating and preparing and are so excited for something more normal in a world of confusion and surpises.

 Things are getting better
but still not great
only just barely good compared to what we had before...

 We were so lucky
to have our friends always by our sides
literally!

So yeah it has gotten better

Remember that one time

when you sailed your boat too far
and you got lost in the night
when you left without saying goodbye
when your heart was filled too the brim with tears, but they never did surface? 

i sit at my "desk"
a sign saying "google meet class in progress" hangs from my doornob
my heart beats fast as the backround music in my head comes to the chorus
i stare at my computer sceen
my friends and teacher looking up at me

it's crazy
how even when 
it feels
like the whole world
misunderstands me
i can just pop in my earbuds
and feel like i'm listening to my own story
i look at my reflection 
in the
music
and feel