Annie Hesser

I’m in love with, you
I’m in love, with you
I’m in love with you
But i'm not in love with you
I’m not in love, with you
I'm in love with the people in love with you
But i'm not in love, with you

I see​ the girl in the mirror every day

Only now she looks different

Her hair is longer

Her teeth are straighter

Her eyes have become lighter

I see her collarbone

She only wore it once. Her fingernails bled from the red nail polish as it was thrown across the table.

I close my eyes and Jump
I shouldn’t have closed my eyes
This was a bad idea

I hit the surface with a splash
The water absorbs me
I sink

I swim through the current to the surface

The wind blows through my helmet into my ear. The swift push of the broken bar gets heavier every time like someone’s stuffing hand warmers in it. I rotate my skis and poles, hoping not to get them stuck under the chair.

The wind blows through my helmet into my ear. The swift push of the broken bar gets heavier every time like someone’s stuffing hand warmers in it. I rotate my skis and poles, hoping not to get them stuck under the chair.