Monster_T_02

I know I may not be the best,
Nor is my mind the greatest,
But I do know my heart still beats,
With the  purest of intent.

My mind may still weep,
My soul may still cry,
But I will not allow myself,
To lay down,

I learned avoidance,
and wrote it off as "putting it on a shelf" 
Because it's a mindfulness skill to put it on the shelf for a minute.
But I never took those problems off the shelf.
I would pretend to my parents.

When you broke me,
You left everything.
The broken pieces of my heart.
Wait millenniums for you to see.
But I am still apart.
I am still broken,
and Bruises,
and lonely.
I am SO lonely.

I'm stressed, hopelessly so,
Pain tolerance high,
Blood circulation low,
Trying to hide
But I can't try to be the thing inside,
My heart so heavy, 
I aint ever see a wedding,
Day in sight, my 
(in progress)

I remember the day I met you,
sunlight beaming on your face.
You told me you would love, Then how much I was a disgrace

I remember the day your friend called,
I heard you on the phone,
As he told me how you missed me,