Monster_T_02

You asked me, "Do you miss me enough to swallow back the spice filled, delirium inducing elixir?" And I responded "I loved you enough not to" There isn't a moment in time your memory doesn't flash across my consciousness. A moment your smile doesn't

Can you see me?
This place don't feel like home.
Can you feel me,


This place no longer holds my hope.
I hope you know me,
Cuz when I leave, you're where I go.
I hope you need me,
cuz I've never felt so alone.

I wanted to believe in the happy endings,

 but as life progressed, so did the sadness. 

The more time you live, the more cruelty you see.

 In this world of make believe, I wish you were with me. 

You pretended like you were my dream, 
But now I see you're a nightmare,
Pulling me apart by the seams,
Reality, a torment I can hardly bare.

How do you tell me how to live,
Dictate my every move,

This is an ode to the madness,
To the crying, fighting, and screaming silence.
An ode to the way you make my heart leap in my throat,
And draw me out of the cold.
 
This is a ode to the fire,

Your hands grab what they can't reach,
Halting my words, trappin my tongue,
Biting back the vomit sweet sentences,
Spewed forth, wanted from no one.

Sickly sweet nothings,
words of lovers lost in time,