amaryllis

Lately, time hasn't made sense
it keeps whooshing past
even when the nothing seems to change
like all the change got sucked into
a huge concentration that knocked us out
and now there's not enough to go around

finally, school is wrapping up
tying the bow atop
an unfinished present
I am reluctant to give away
what will i have when it ends?
will days stretch longer
or will the sand fall faster?
as i lie on this bed day after day

even when the world stands still
it turns topsy turvy beneath our feet
as black and white blend into gray,
color, stark against the lackluster
people claw for more definition
and the land of the free and purple skies

I stand there,
the words on the black rubber
a brief scan registering as injustice
the price, a death
but the detestable transaction 
is already over
bagged in thin plastic
taken out of the florescent lights

Her socks were mismatched, eye gunk crystals stuck to her lashes, and the morning sun had risen far to early. But what else was new?

My stomach drops and fizzes with excitement
as I type all those emojis with a happy birthday
and this is probably pretty out of the blue
can't imagine how long I've waited to text you

I had thought before it was over