Amelia_v

you're so pretty

and i pray every night

that you won't cry again

about those pounds gained

or those pimples

in the feather-soft skin of your cheeks

it hurts me 

how you forget

i'm getting good

at smiling like it's no big deal

i can laugh and joke

i'm getting good

at masking my pain 

pretending everything's alright

makes it easier 

to get through today. 

They think I'm always quiet,

But they don't know

Just how loud it is,

In my mind. 

I think it’s absurd

How we define best

And how we define worst

You must be smart

But not too smart

Never ugly

But you can’t look too pretty

That means your trying to hard

I will admit I loved him

All his flaws disappeared

The weird way he grinned

His work-worn hands

The smell of sawdust and woods

In every particle of skin 

He was the only thing I could think of