Claire

I'm smiling to myself,

remembering,

reminiscing,

the good times.

The times where it was you,

and me,

against the world.

Who would stop us?

blow out your candles. 

make a wish.

hold up a protest sign.

tonight the fireworks spell R E S I S T.

your hair's in pigtails braided red blue and white.

Each problem, each issue, each time 

I hope you change, I take the blame 

Pretending I’m okay, I’m fine 

But in the end, you stay the same 

Next to you

Not a big deal

Natural

Normal

Eyes

Joking

Teasing

I could touch you

The bracelet on your wrist

Our bracelet

I could talk to you about it

I'd lose my train of thought

Stinging my eyes

The tears come

Pouring down

Relentlessly.

Still breathing 

Still warm

Yet dead 

To me

And me alone.

Grief floods me

Again 

I'm drowning