Futaba

Elouise could hardly breath in the corset she was being strapped into.

sometimes,

i close my eyes

and dream of a world

different from ours,

a world

where things feel less broken,

a world

at first

you were the loud boy on the bus 

with a red lunchbox 

full of day old spaghetti in a dented thermos

and parmesan your dad brought back from italy 

she wasn't my first best friend but she was my first best friend. she's the most important cog in my machine, the girl i'd do anything for. i want to be her bestie forever forever.

The moment I first saw you, I knew to be afraid.

Being a teenager means 

Schrodinger's cat isn't just a concept anymore 

The person you are 

is simultaneously alive and dead