Inkpaw

melancholy smiles
and faded dreams
shattered pieces 
glued back together with the faint light of dawn
like feathers dancing around each other
circles spun out of mystery 
and hesitant glances

lost 
in the foggy mess 
of growing up 
and becoming a person 
who can be strong
and loving
and kind

i am lost
in this ever changing world 
and i love it.
for i have found 

one year older
still lost in your eyes
caught among the stars over my head
dreaming in the sunlight
being myself as much as i can
trying to free what's stuck inside
pushed down by the fear
and the assumptions of others

when i went to sleep
i was myself
when i fell into those pillows
soft and downy fluff
i knew what my purpose was
i knew myself
better than anyone else
yet somewhere
among the starry sky 
and hazy dreams

numb
from all the empty space
the lack of laughter
and people 
who can never be replaced
no longer standing next to me
making stupid jokes
that we all guffaw at anyway
for fear has drowned them in solitude