Actual tears

Tears

for this show

for this character I love more than

any

             freaking

                                     thing

in the whole universe I know 

he's not real

this isn't real

it feels real!

I love him so much 

he cried

he admitted things

he said it was about her but it wasn't

he deserves better 

he's amazing

brave

perfect

incredible

he deserves everything

and I just wanted to reach into the screen and hug him I 

wanted his best friend to hug him

gah you couldn't even tell he was crying?? REALLY????

It's not one of my crazy celeb crushes

it's not a crush it's...

I don't know

he wasn't my favorite character but

he's the one who's forgotten

overlooked

when he went through MORE THAN ALL OF THEM!!!

and so yes

when he cried

I cried

when he hugged the girl he has to compete with for his best friend

his crush 

who doesn't even know he likes him

he hugged her because he loves everyone and he's an incredible human being

he feels like a person!

Like a real person!

He doesn't get jealous

he just hugged her and asked if she was okay

let his best friend love her

GAH I LOVE YOU!

I love him so extremely,

completely platonically,

this character I will never get to meet -

he's just...

he's amazing.

He's amazing and I want the whole world to know that!

But more than anything I want it to be reciprocated

he deserves so much to feel wanted and loved

and not NEGLECTED!

And I know he could do better but if that's who makes him happy

THEN I WANT IT TO HAPPEN!

He deserves this

when he cries I cry

I cried a lot

he is my weakness

this character.

I should not be so involved but it feels real

he feels real.

If that's who he wants

then I swear to everything

please let it happen.