QueenBee

QueenBee

VT

13 years old

Posts

  • Some days

    Some days I look through my folder

    Flip through my books

    Scroll through PDFs

    And I just don't want to

    Just don't feel like it

    Just not in the mood

    And suddenly I am terrified

    Terrified

  • Who am I?

    Sometimes I think

    Of what my life would be without this

    Without the conductor who changed my life

    Without my duet partner who taught me how to perform

    Without my instrument

    Without the music

  • This summer

    I should be being

    A teenager

    Walking around

    Biking the village with friends

    Creemees

    Candy

    Joking

    Laughing

    Teasing

    Farmers markets

    Confessions

    Crushes

    Running around

  • I wish

    I wish I could be you.

    Running to your room

    Plugging your ears

    Whenever there's a scary part of a movie

    And coming back out in time

    To see the happy ending -

    Closing your eyes

    Covering your face

  • This man

    This man

    With a family who loves him

    But can't help him

    Because he needs to help himself first

    This man

    Drunk on hatred for himself

    For this world

    "Hopeless", they all say

    With their eyes

Loves

  • Some days

    Some days I look through my folder

    Flip through my books

    Scroll through PDFs

    And I just don't want to

    Just don't feel like it

    Just not in the mood

    And suddenly I am terrified

    Terrified

  • Tears

    My tears taste of memories,

    slipping from my eyes,

    replaying on my cheeks,

    leaving a trail of our past on my lips,

    tasting of the bitter-sweet moments of us,

    and finally, 

    silently, 

  • See you, brother

    I don't think you're a waste of space,

    I'll give you my room and my pillow

    As long as you make the bed afterwards,

    And close the windows to keep the rain out. 

     

    I don't think your not enough,

  • my hair

    my hair falls like clumps of tears

    ready to be set free,

    like chains held over my head.

    i tied my hair into knots

    of familial expectations,

    the knot’s been untied,

    and the cage has opened

  • Mixed Feelings

    I am sad

    sad to not have weekly meetings with you

    I am nervous

    nervous of what I'll be doing this weekend

    I am excited

    excited to show off, to show my friends and family this tradition

    I am apprehensive