QueenBee

You created memories

And then got to move on

Leaving them untouched and perfect

Mine are being trampled.

Walked all over by my friends

My peers

I can't DO this

This constant emotional bombardment

And I'm here again and I love it

Away from my friends

Away from my peers

My teachers

Here with doable expectations

The stage lights glinting off my glasses like melted candlelight

And it feels the same

But in the worst way possible

And I hate this 

More than I hated last year

At least last year

I cared

What I wouldn't give to care now

And it's all back

Full-fledged

Only it's... worse?

It's harder?

And I am completely "fine"

And "enjoying myself"

And "fitting in".

I take the homework home

And complete it within half an hour.

I want to cross the street and have cars catapult around me

Mass destruction like wouldn't you know it

I want my steps to echo the pavement

And for the world to swerve around me

But I walk and nothing happens

I am such a horrible awful jerk

I refuse pets

I refuse animals

Because I refuse to get another

Because that feels like replacing her

And so I won't do it

But there are all these animals out there