Am I ever going to love again?

I know my world is warped 

But I thought I saw you clearly 

I assume I saw it wrong

But there are two people in this story

Two hurt, damaged people that fell in love

At least I did anyway

Two similar yet opposite teenagers 

That weren't meant to be together 

It wasn't meant to be 

But you're the only one for me

You showed me something I'd never felt before

And I guess its my fault it's done

You brought me back from the edge,

Filled me with optimism and joy

I thought I spoiled you rotten 

But it turns out I was rotting your heart

To hear you in this anguish is devastating 

It breaks my heart more than the end did

But I feel not guilty 

The names you've thrown at me are not something I've been

But will my heart ever heal? 

Will I ever love another?

People say the pain stops

But you were what stopped the pain

My thoughts of you are overwhelmed with anxiety,

My mind is a jumbled mess

You made me whole

Just to shatter me worse than I was before

I don't want to be angry anymore 

I don't want to hold hate to you

The thought of us breaks me

But I know that if you ever really loved me, your hurting too