Everything

I have the chance to do anything

not quite everything

but many things

and I don't know what I want to do.

I could be a writer

or start my own company

or be an Einstein-level mathematician

or be a small-town baker

or run a food drive

or be a teacher

a doctor

a vet

a taxi driver

and I don't know what I want to do.

I could move to Argentina

or Finland

or New Zealand

or something

and I could travel the world

and I don't know if I want to,

I don't know what I want to do.

This happens to me everywhere

this indecisiveness of choosing

of picking

like at the local country store

I have the option to buy a piece of candy or something

and I look

and think

and write out whole pro/con lists in my head

deciding,

then trashing that idea and going on to the next

the choices too vast

too large in numbers

in opportunities

because if I choose one thing

I'll miss out on a chance to have another thing

and I'll be regretful

and I'll wish I could be in all of the possible realities.

So I want to do everything

or as much as possible

in my short

small

life

I want to visit Alaska

and Nepal

and Guatemala

I want to be a writer

an artist

a baker

I want to do

everything

so I never miss out on a chance

where I could've taken another route,

so I'll never take one path

I'll take them all.