How can so much mean so little?

I give up everything for you 

At the drop of a hat

I tear myself apart for your happiness 

Even though you're still sad

I do everything to fix the problem 

While knowing damn well I am the problem.

I will never be enough for you.

I will never make you happy.

I've done everything I know how to

But you won't tell me my flaws

You won't let me fix the problems.

Your voice was once a sweet melody to me

Now it makes me cry

Never in front of you though 

I could never do that to you

You still kill me

You're silence kills me

The words, "let's not be friends"

Kill me.

Congratulations.

You have me wrapped around your finger

A sacrifice for your peace 

A personal jester

Jewelry.

Not your favorite earrings or your beloved rings

The pair of hoops you wear for show

But only for a little while 

Then you shove them in your pocket 

Forget them

You think this helps

You think I'm the problem so eliminating me will fix it

But it won't 

That's why you come back 

You come back to the person you resent most

You burn me with your cold words

But I'll stay 

I'll be here every time you come back.

Even though I mean nothing to you 

I'll always be here. 

 

-Sincerely, nobody to you 

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