I need you

You asked me to talk to you more.
to tell you what I need.
You went and in a single hour,
blew apart my entire world.
So here is what I need.
I need you to not judge me.
I need you to acknowledge that you broke me more last night.
I need you to listen to my reasons and not say anything, just understand.
I need you to know that I am an emotional wreck.
I need you to realize that you can't just stop loving someone.
I need you to know I don't know who to trust anymore.
I need you to know I am scared.

So I need you to watch me walk out of this house.
I need you to not stop me.
I need you to realize that you are forcing me to move for the 8th time and understand
why this would be hard for me.
I need you to realize you hurt me last night and I don't know what to do and so I need to go talk
like an adult
and figure this out.
I need you to remember I haven't gotten a break.
That I had to grow up when I was 12.
That Covid happened, and now 
there might be a 3rd World War.
I have plenty of reason to walk out right now.
Plenty of reason to have a psychotic break.
So
I need you to not judge me
and let me go