i pledge allegiance

i hate watching

you. i hate the blood

that pumps underneath your right hand

and runs through you red and thick and salty--

i hate your stubborn lips, mouthing

every 

word.

i wish i didn't wonder

how it feels.

i wish i could

stop

watching you.

star

NH

15 years old

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