I wanna be okay

I wanna be okay,

I've been through so much pain

I've been brought up and broken 

Silenced and out spoken

 

I wanna be okay,

My life was flipped over

But now it's getting better

I float up and feel light as a feather 

 

I have no more love songs

No more heartfelt words 

But I'm falling in love again 

And it's better than before

 

I see her every day 

With her long hair and slender frame

I wonder how she sees herself as ugly

I ponder how she thinks she's worthless 

 

Every minute I spend with her I fall more and more

But this isn't a stranger to you

As this isn't someone new

This small, smart, and passionate girl 

Is me 

And I wanna be okay so she can be okay

 

I learned that I can't put all my love into someone, I have to put it into me

I have to love me

And it's easier than I ever imagined 

They were all wrong, I'm easy to love

And I wanna be okay with me

Bee.Lover

VT

16 years old

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    I'll push my dull heart down

    Anytime you need me to

    And you'll never hear me

    Beg you under my breath 

    Not to leave me

     

    You looked at me

    Like I'm a horrible 

    Burden just now

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    I look in the mirror 

    Like any girl my age

    But I'm repulsed in horror 

    At what is on stage

     

    I look at those numbers 

    Wait for them to go down again 

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