now her

I wanted to be yours,

I wanted to feel you close. 

I didn't just want to be friends,

I wanted to be wrapped up in your clothes. 

Now that I am yours, 

I wish you weren't so far away. 

Now that we are no longer friends,

I wish that I could actually hear your heys. 

I don't usually second guess myself,

But I have been, even though I don't want to. 

I see you in some of my futures,

And I have this burning passion for you. 

But the other part of me knows

That this will end like the last. 

It will break into pieces, 

But I don't think these feelings will pass. 

I still wish I could see you in the hall,

And not just in my dreams. 

I would give up everything

Just to hold you—by any means. 

It's not you who's asking to meet 

Spontaneously, behind closed doors. 

It's her, and I don't think I can take it

Because it's not her—not anymore.

It's you. 

Every single day,

I want you. 

I want to see you smile,

I want to feel your laugh next to me. 

And I would run forever to see you,

Just to waste all our time, my love,

And chase cars in the constellations above.