One year, one lifetime

My world is different 

A new place 

A new name

Yet still just the same as last year

Still the same crushing sorrow

Still the same grief as last year

 

I don't recognize myself anymore 

I have a new face

A new hair color 

Yet I'm still in the same body as last year

Still the same clothes 

Still the same dark circles under my eyes as were there last year

 

I'm a changed person 

I got more irresponsible 

I got more emotionally aware

Yet I still won't be good enough for my lover

Because I still play the same game

And I still haven't fixed my broken heart from last year

 

So I'm here

Grieving the same loss

Rubbing my sore eyes

Picking up the shards of my heart

And missing the same girl I lost last year.

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