people a certain kinda way

Forgive me

Forgive me for saying these words, forgive me
For telling you I’m sorry
Forgive me for not knowing very much but knowing enough
That I can survive
Is that not what we all do? 
Forgive me for for being scared, please forgive me
For only being human and not knowing what comes next and 
Feeling pure terror pool inside my chest, please
Forgive me

I’m living a life that sometimes costs so much more than it should

And sometimes doesn’t seem like enough

I’m trying to walk the thin line that apparently exists in between those, 

Conflicting sides that seem to have found a common ground

I’m not there, in case you care

I’m breathing air that has already expired, my head is spinning

Panic in the mornings as I try to figure out what to do

Can you hear my music, sad love songs that feed on the sound

Of human hearts beating

What are you doing right now, sitting in your fancy chairs at your 

Glossy wooden desks, are you

Smiling as you count my money, the few thousand dollars

I’ve been saving up since I was 12, are you laughing

As it goes in your pockets towards that fancy new watch you’ve been wanting?

I am but a fragment of this shattered world, can you see

The glass that lies broken around your feet?

Why do you expect me to pick up all the pieces?

It’s not mine, not yet

Why do you look at me like I’m supposed to be a certain way? 

Am I not your picture perfect person, is anyone?

Why do you expect me to be someone for you?

So now are you going to dismiss me because I don’t exist for your want?

Am I now just a pencil mark for you to erase, a name to scratch off your list?


There’s a witch burning down the street
Just in case you’re interested 


We can be so overly isolated sometimes, hands shaking at human interactions

My generation is lawless, can’t you see that?

X marks the spot, watch us dance shoeless on the coals 

Of a society that burned before us

Promises will be made, the effort of keeping them

Will be tucked away in our pockets, clinking against our phones

Don’t tell me you’re going to remember
Tell me instead, 
That you’ll never forget

So forgive me for drowning my mind with music, 
Forgive me for hiding, forgive me for hoping for something that will never be
Forgive me for being scared of not having a future, 
Because you’re the one who screwed this world over

Forgive me for asking for your forgiveness

Because why am I the one saying sorry? 

 

Stargirl

VT

18 years old

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