Sleepy Hollow summer trails

This trail

this trail was too hard

way too hard

pushed me

emotionally and physically

in a way that left me nauseous

unable to breathe

shaky

biking with a bunch of girls that were more talented than I was

with a bunch of adults that found this "fun"

fun?

This was not fun

I doubt this will ever be fun

biking up a cliff with people who don't know me

who don't know my limits

when we stopped to regroup

because I was falling behind and making everyone behind me wait impatiently every time I fell

I told everyone to go ahead

it's okay, you can go in front of me

I told the mentor in the back

I can't do this trail;

I can't breathe

I feel nauseous

she sat with me as I recovered

not fully

but enough to get back to the parking lot

spilling everything Sleepy Hollow related about my life

Nordic skiing

preferring to bike at Catamount where I can appreciate biking without feeling like I'm about to die

this is what I hate about biking at Sleepy Hollow

it's not at my level

and no one other than me knows this

and I only realize it when I'm being herded up Tatooine

up a cliff

rocks

roots

short of air

near tears

whatever they wanted this program to be, it wasn't working.