Maybe I lost it one day.
Maybe I was tired of taking it.
I was put in a horrible
Toxic
Situation with horrible
Toxic
People.
There is no out.
I have no choice but to survive the year.
Tough it out.
If there's one thing I'm good at
It's surviving.
So they picked on me.
They picked on our teachers.
Behind our backs, of course
Too scared to say it to our faces.
They made fun of a teacher out sick in front of our sub
They tried to tell me how to live
What to do
"Why won't you do this"
"Why"
"Why"
"Why".
I don't owe any of you any explanations
I think
But I know better than to say that
Because the school
Will never understand
And I hate getting in trouble.
So I snapped, one day.
"Why don't you mind your own business?"
My tone as sharp as ice
With razor edges.
Dulled, slightly
But still aiming to injure
A little bit
For now.
So after that day
That day when I was so tired
And I told them where they could put their ridiculous
Unspoken
Rules
I kept going.
It was hard to stop.
Day after day
After day
After day.
I fought them.
Over little things
I would not let them win.
I stood up for my teachers
And they can make my life miserable
But I can make theirs worse.
They don't get to do this.
I won't let them.
The only problem is
They're a group.
A group of mean
Selfish
People.
And they back each other up
And tear everybody down.
And I hate them.
Every single one.
I tried to give them a chance at the start.
I gave up quickly.
Lost causes can't be helped when they're not willing to try.
So I fight them
Every step of the way
With my voice
With my words.
I tell them stop
I tell them no
I tell them treat our teachers like humans
Because they work so hard for us
And they are so patient with us
And you lie to the subs
Say "she never taught us this!"
So I tell them pay attention more often
Because she did teach us this.
And they make fun of everyone
And it is
Disgusting.
Toxic.
Toxic.
Toxic.
Comments
I am so sorry that you are dealing with this . But believe me when I say that you are not alone in that struggle.
Thank you, that means a lot.
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