fitting in is rent, and it's due every day
paid in the basic clothes you wear
and in the people of which you smile and compliment
but more importantly in the people you don't
it's questioning your passions and beliefs
and settling for the safest option
its forgetting to do things for yourself
dodging the spotlight
praying that you blend in effortlessly with the crowd
accidentally wearing the same shirt as your friend
flirting with the wrong guy to get invited to a stupid party
crying and screaming into your pillow
realizing that you don't actually trust your best friend
overanalyzing every insult
believing them and letting them sink into your soul
being too confident, and then too passive, and then two-faced
losing your spark a little bit every day until its a faint glimmer of light,
masked by layers of doubt and put-down and darkness
so what's it all for? because this isn't worth
being just ordinary, just regular
to feel as far away from beautiful as the moon is from earth
the other girls are galaxies ahead, and no amount of chasing will get you any closer
and that's why you have to stop chasing
wherever you go, there you are
build yourself the better life where the only opinion that matters is your own
where people add to your glow instead of letting you fade into the background
recognize mean comments for the projections that they are
and know you are better and that you are worth it
Comments
I love how incredibly honest this is and your writing is gorgeous. Love the metaphors!
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