The truth about fitting in

fitting in is rent, and it's due every day

paid in the basic clothes you wear

and in the people of which you smile and compliment

but more importantly in the people you don't

it's questioning your passions and beliefs

and settling for the safest option

its forgetting to do things for yourself

dodging the spotlight 

praying that you blend in effortlessly with the crowd

accidentally wearing the same shirt as your friend

flirting with the wrong guy to get invited to a stupid party

crying and screaming into your pillow

realizing that you don't actually trust your best friend

overanalyzing every insult

believing them and letting them sink into your soul

being too confident, and then too passive, and then two-faced

losing your spark a little bit every day until its a faint glimmer of light,

masked by layers of doubt and put-down and darkness

so what's it all for? because this isn't worth

being just ordinary, just regular

to feel as far away from beautiful as the moon is from earth 

the other girls are galaxies ahead, and no amount of chasing will get you any closer

and that's why you have to stop chasing

wherever you go, there you are

build yourself the better life where the only opinion that matters is your own

where people add to your glow instead of letting you fade into the background

recognize mean comments for the projections that they are 

and know you are better and that you are worth it

J_Kramer

VT

15 years old

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  • Summer Camp

    The dirty gravel path crunches under the tires of our Toyota. Dust rises around the car, blurring the tall vibrant trees hugging the road.

  • Fall '25

    Shadows lengthening 

    Air sharpening to a crisp 

    Summer slipping day by day 

    Something new and familiar in its place. 

    Bags stuffed with papers 

    Early morning bus rides 

  • Falling sky

    falling sky, slowly, piece by piece

    I've forgotten how to move, to breathe

    all the truth I've ever known begins to cease

    as I watch my world fall apart

     

    time is ticking, while holding still