Walking

You called this my "sulk walk"

You said just to talk to you when I'm upset

But I don't have you anymore 

I don't have anyone here

 

I blocked her out so she won't get burned by my fire

You walked away 

So now I walk

 

Nothing to do, 

Nowhere to be,

Just wandering these familiar halls

Back and forth

 

I walk and pace and pray for a miracle 

That you'll call me over

That I won't be alone anymore 

 

But it's not happening 

You don't want me back, 

Rightfully so

So I walk

 

I question how I got here

My weak legs give out on the stairs 

My knees are scraped from tripping 

 

I walk and wander until I can't anymore 

Until it's too painful 

Until I'm too sad

Until I can't walk

Bee.Lover

VT

16 years old

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