Looking at you two
as you "dance" on the "dance floor"
which is really just an empty spot on the ground
as you hold hands awkwardly
though enjoying it
as you experience feelings that I've never experienced before.
I keep asking what it's like
because I don't know what it's like
and you two clearly do
you just don't really tell me
it's like missing out on this big secret that everyone else knows
everyone but me
I feel sort of left out, yes
but I'm not sure if I'm jealous or not
maybe I'm amused
or curious
I don't know
because I'm so good at lying to myself
that I can't tell the difference between if I'm telling the truth or not anymore
I doubt myself too
I can't feel what you two feel for each other
I don't open myself up that much
I can't be that honest
that unfiltered
that pure
I just don't know how
after so many years of pretending
I can't find myself
I can't possibly put myself out there
to feel what
you two
feel
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