Writing

Why?

Why is it so hard to say goodbye?

Every time I try, I freeze and can't speak...

Why did you have to go?

Why did you have to leave?

You left without a warning...

I felt like I couldn't breathe...

I wrote a poem about you.

One you probably won’t read.

Because I don’t have the courage

And it defeats its purpose anyway

Sometimes
I wake up
And I just can’t
I can’t get up
I can’t go to school
I can’t go get my meds
Why?
Because sometimes
It’s too much
Accepting this world
Is just too much
And I just can’t
Make myself

"You realize

If we do this

It's like going back in time,"

I tell you,

I tell you,

Over and over and over.

You don't listen.

You've never listened.

It’s a ball of knotted string

Stuck under my ribcage.

Whenever I start to untangle it,

I break a sweat & forget

Why I even tried. 

I won’t even attempt to write a poem about music- poems aren’t me. I’ve never been good at writing them. But a block of text doesn’t look as pretty. It really just looks like a rant. And I guess, that’s what it is.