Writing

(Sometimes)

Life just seems much too hard

(Sometimes)

I don't want to go on

(Sometimes)

I feel like it's impossible-

Immovable walls surround me

(Sometimes)

I don't understand other folks-

Last night,

I dreamed of the clouds.

They looked so magical, all up so high.

Suddenly I was there,

with them.

It was cold- freezing, even.

And the water from the clouds on myself was freezing.

Somewhere in a far off future, I am

                dancing

When I was five, I remember running across an open field on some warm summer day. We were flying kites, and I chased the one shaped like a bird, imagining I was flying right with it.

Inside I am falling apart

Like rain clouds, I hold it in till I burst...

Tears running down my face like a rainstorm

Wanting to scream as loud as the thunder, because maybe, just maybe, someone will hear my cries...

When I look at mirrors, they don't break, but they bend and warp and fold in on themselves.