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Anger fuels me in an indescribable way 
It makes me feel like I can't think about anything else
Anger fuels me in ways that make me lose control 
It's gotten worse and worse the more I ignore it 
My fear is if I acknowledge it's there I'll open a door of complete chaos that is uncontrollable and will flood the streets like an overflowing river
But maybe the only way to control it is to let it flood 
A sea of red overflowing sidewalks and parking lots instead of my mind and body 
I was never an angry person and I don't understand why or how that changed 
I hate the feeling I get when I'm angry but it's unstoppable 
It's like all I can see and hear is the color red and my body is covered in fresh coffee 
My chest tightens and my fists are ready to be flung at any point 
The words coming out of my mouth are never the right ones and then after the words have been spoken all I can do is act like it didn't happen so I stop thinking about it 
Anger fuels me in an indescribable way