Maxwell

It’s been a long time since I’ve decided to write 
There’s a new monster roaming my head
Coloring all the others in fear with its fierce wails to be heard and forceful puppetry 
They’ve always been here 

Sometimes life gives you more than you can handle 
Sometimes you can't figure out what to do with all the pain you feel because you know the right thing will hurt more 

Sometimes it's really hard to breath 
In fact it's hard right now 
My eyes are filling with what feels like fresh bathwater and my chest is tight and feels like it's on fire 

Anger fuels me in an indescribable way 
It makes me feel like I can't think about anything else
Anger fuels me in ways that make me lose control 
It's gotten worse and worse the more I ignore it 

Sadness consumes me like the sunlight does the darkness 
It looks so beautiful and tempting but the second you let it grab hold of you 
It consumes you 
Sadness preys on me like a monster that looks and acts friendly