Her name is

I hung out with her today 

I listened to her talk

I was mesmerized by her

 

She brought me in to town with her

I wonder if it was a date 

I wish it was anyway 

 

She said she'll probably just stop this

I didn't tell her but it made my heart sink 

How could she do that if she wants me?

 

Ive been on my best behavior 

So maybe she'll stay

But she knows that this isn't right 

 

I don't want my life to be void of her

I adore her smile and beautiful eyes

She's the light in my dreams 

 

But I can't shake the feeling that she doesn't actually want me

And I can't bring myself to tell her

In the end it doesn't matter 

Because who am I to want more?

I'm just her ex lover

And she doesn't love me anymore.

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