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My computer is dead again, 

It's another excuse not to write. 

My hand is cramping from playing, 

But all the songs don't sound right. 

They don't quite understand it, 

"Why are you sad, my dear?"

My mother asks me again and again, 

But my mouth won't open; you can't hear

the words that are caught in a cold, metal chain. 

I can't tell her how hard I yearn

I can't breathe, 

I haven't felt like this in a while. 

I thought it was getting better, 

But I'm still drowning in screams. 

Breathe, 

Take some air, you deserve it. 

The flower petal was from a lily, 

It was white, light, and innocent. 

It floated on the top of loathsome water, 

It appeared lonely, slowly deteriorating there. 

It's endless,

The loop of love. 

I fall into it once,

And it feels like I'll never escape. 

It's like I'm tied to myself,

Suffocating in thousands of knots,

Tied by you. 

I feel so hopeless, 

Every second, every minute. 

It feels like my heart beat is out of rhythm, 

And the measure shouldn't be completed. 

This is the only way I know how