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I'm chasing that feeling 
I lost so long ago 
The feeling when the sun would set 
And a smile would appear on my face

Rumors. 

They suck.

I had one about me

That I was dating a girl that I was just friends with

But according to middle school boys that means that we are 

I'm scared.

I can't believe we're here

Again.

I can't believe this is reality

Again.

Four years

They say.

It's only four years.

But it's four years

Of a living hell for me.

They laugh

Red:

The color of blood

The color of the hearts that are going to be ripped out

ripped out and thrown aside.

Red,

the color this country became

as of... yesterday?

White:

I am nauseous, constantly.

There is a Fear deep rooted in me.

My hands no longer shake in tests

the Fear is bigger than tests now

I want to go to college, let me go

it's 11:20 on a cloudy october night 

and the world is falling to my feet. 

the world is falling to my feet 

as autumn leaves perform their death march to the ground