Stargirl

This world and this life are so complicated. I only say this because i know it to be true.
None of my teenage years have been normal, or easy. And some of these complications, ive brought on myself.

Im finding out things. 
A list of them, 10 of them, all neatly lined up.

1. Change is hard, it hurts, there are good parts and there are parts where you say fuck this. But there are still good parts. 

Sleep is but a memory.
It’s the tide that slips onto the shore,
Leaving dreams washed up on the beach.
There are daisies on my mind, a wrinkled blanket 
Left in a field under the midday sun.

si tu veux me trouver, regarde 
dans les endroits tu peux pas
 Voir, walking the tangle of crossroads 
Nothing is ever as it seems
The sky is only so blue
I woke up today, for you

Forgive me

Forgive me for saying these words, forgive me
For telling you I’m sorry
Forgive me for not knowing very much but knowing enough
That I can survive
Is that not what we all do? 

You asked me to talk to you more.
to tell you what I need.
You went and in a single hour,
blew apart my entire world.
So here is what I need.
I need you to not judge me.