Stargirl

January 6th
2022
three signifigant things happened
stuck in my head

The day of my brother's birthday
He turned 14, my grandfather
has started calling him Young Man
no longer just Grandson

She used to never be scared
She used to be quiet and meek and obedient
She used to speak and be heard because
she was only repeating what she had been told
She used to wreathe her hair in flowers, sweet innocence for a crown

12/22/21
I will remember these numbers forever
and not because they're a palindrome...

Took a few tests
a few weeks back
Sat on a table covered in paper and watched blood
drain out of my body into tubes.

For the first time in my life I am terrified.
Terrified for my life and the lives of others. 
Because this is real, this is actually happening.
Standing on the front steps before class, hearing murmurings 

 These are cells dividing
Two people going their separate ways.
Atoms exploding, this is--
This will be--

Welcome to your ruination--
This is how it starts--

The lights will flicker on and off,