The Crave

The Need 

The want 

The feel of it all

My brain fights with my heart like two strays

To push yourself into nothing

"You need to be the best"

Over and over till I give in

Study study study

Taking note after note

Wanting to be the best is losing whats best for you

A's all along my grades 

At the cost of what really

Sleep? No

Social Bonds? No

Myself

I've denied it to many times 

I push an push till the vase knocks off the counter

All A's 

I need sleep

All A's

I need help

All A's

What does it take to be perfect in every way

The way I'm doing isn't it

 

Logo5069

VT

13 years old

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