I don't know anymore

I don't know anymore 

And neither do you

But at least you moved on 

But did you really?

 

Am I mistaken in this?

Am I reading too far in to your poems?

Are these words I see meant for my eyes?

Or am I confused and lost?

 

The answers keep me awake 

Pondering if Ive really lost it this time 

I need you to tell me

But I fear you don't know either 

 

I don't know what to do 

I don't know who I am

I'm lost in my mind and in your eyes

Dying to have something I can't 

 

I want you

I NEED you

But I can't have you

I'm forever tied to a girl that I don't know anymore 

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