I don't know anymore

I don't know anymore 

And neither do you

But at least you moved on 

But did you really?

 

Am I mistaken in this?

Am I reading too far in to your poems?

Are these words I see meant for my eyes?

Or am I confused and lost?

 

The answers keep me awake 

Pondering if Ive really lost it this time 

I need you to tell me

But I fear you don't know either 

 

I don't know what to do 

I don't know who I am

I'm lost in my mind and in your eyes

Dying to have something I can't 

 

I want you

I NEED you

But I can't have you

I'm forever tied to a girl that I don't know anymore 

A calf I helped to deliver named Deity

Bee.Lover

VT

15 years old

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    You called this my "sulk walk"

    You said just to talk to you when I'm upset

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    I don't have anyone here

     

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    I know it's wrong

    I know it's wrong 

    But I'm dreaming of your eyes

    I'm cursing to myself 

    But I'm drowning in their lies

     

    Your voice is deafening like a lullaby 

    Your beauty is blinding like the dark

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    Ripping me apart

    I try to stop my thoughts 

    I try to pry my eyes off of you

    I fight the burning urge to go up to you

    I resist the need to talk to you that's clawing at my brain 

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