Writing

11:00 PM: "Hey. how are you?"
Delete.

11:00 PM:  "I know its late but I cant sleep. How have you been? I've been thinking about you."
Delete

i watch as all of my old friends 

grow up to be everything i never wanted,

everything i told myself i would never turn into.

As if it were wrong,

as if it were some curse.

And now i want everything they have,

I almost called you last night. 

I had my thumb hovering over your contact, 

just staring at your name until the screen went dark.

When I was young, I lived in the countryside, nestled safely within a regrowth town along the coastline.

I wonder if they're up there

Watching from the stars

Waving at the ship

From Venus and from Mars 

Does Laika chase the ship

 A toy she never got to test?