Writing

My ankle hurts

because I stepped funny

at the very beginning

of my very own bat mitzvah party.

I might've twisted it

I don't really know

but I can't sit a certain way

otherwise the pain returns

sarcastic jabs and quippy lines

I hope you know I usually don't mean it

and I know my best is not enough

but that's what being human is all about

I don't have to worry about perfection

I will overcome compulsions

It

was

terrifying.

Nothing more

nothing less

it could only be described as that.

I was shaking, actually

I don't know why I was so scared of doing this

Fireflies and sun

Thunderstorms that shake the house

Summer has returned

Even with my friends, I'm alone.

They date. They love each other.

I'm opening my phone

To nothing 

No messages, no emails, no missed calls,

All I'm getting is radio silence 

The sinking feeling in my heart returned

The one where you know something is wrong