pain is a multi-stage pair of steps

it starts with an event; or something mentally efferus

the lack of motivation kicks in before anything else

sometimes you know it and sometimes you don’t know it

but like pain it’s always there.

the second step is to pretend to block it out with a smile

become an eccedentesiast to everyone else

while everyone else thinks that your world is full of ataraxia.

the third is to not speak of the tacenda

while in the back of your head you’re screaming out for help

but love, you’re already used to suffering.

the fourth, the easiest, is to become a lacuna

“a blank space” as they say

by this time you’ll be solivagant so it shouldn’t be too hard.

there are benefits to being in pain--

you’ll understand just how fake everyone else is.