Poetry

Five-foot-four and
Crashed a soccer career
Too ambitious for her own good.

Lost touch with her friends from school
Didn't make friends after that.

Remembers when she was something
But doesn't have time to reminisce.

Abandon ship,
Jump into mountains,
Skip stones on the River Styx.

Always sans joy,
Nostalgia overcomes hope
Yellow light plays colors on old desks

Every day when I walk home from school
I see a woman with her young son
Asking for money by the road.

I stick my hands in my pocket and
Turn my head away.
There is nothing I can do because
I only have three dollars on me.

I miss when my bedroom walls were purple. 

Cranberry purple, to be specific. 

I was young, 

and moving into my new bedroom 

while my sister stayed in the one next to it. 

Abandoned is worse than alone

it means you had something and it left you

chose to, perhaps

it means you were willingly and knowingly left behind

if you're alone it could be by choice

you're by yourself

I'm a system of equations

and you're my matching set

no answer to the variables

we spend our lives trying to solve

I don't know who I am

I don't know who you are

but I know who we are

the pathways of my mind intersect and wind

curling until they turn to infinite spirals

leading to darkness I couldn't see the end of if I tried.

my mind doesn't listen when I tell it to stop.  

Hey younger me

You're doing great.

I believe in you.

If at this time you feel as though you don't have many friends, that's okay.

You'll get another one soon.

dear diary,

today is Christmas and I got a new Barbie.

she probably doesn’t like me because

i still haven’t taken her out of the 

last year on my birthday

i wished for a soulmate

i didnt get one

not in the way i thought i would

but i have you

maybe you were what i was wishing for

i know youll always pick me

i blew out the candles

and made a wish

i wished for love

like i always do

but something felt

different

more melancholy

like maybe i wont

get my wish

i have my whole life

My 30th year.

Poor, living in an apartment,

With a childhood friend.

Single,  but that's alright.

Never expected much of a love life, anyway.