Fainting Goat

Every day is the same.

I wake up and go to school.

Every day I smile a big fake smile...

I smile a big ear-to-ear fake smile that hides the truth from people...

“Why didn’t you ask for help?”

When I didn’t write for weeks

I was asking for help

When I stopped smiling

When I stopped laughing

When happiness became fake

What happened to my childhood?

Where did it all go?

I swear it was right there...

All my self-confidence, my imagination, my courage, my creativity...

But it all just disappeared...

I sit on my front lawn and watch as the sky starts to fall.

I knew it was going to happen.

We all did.

I sit on the lawn in silence.

The sky crashing down.

It shatters into a million pieces.

the divine tranquillity of the vast ocean

the sounds of the waves, crashing into one another

it's peaceful, it soothes the racing thoughts in my mind

it stops time for a split second