Calico Frost

Constantly

all the time

I feel like crying

I've just had enough

enough of the girls accidentally hitting us with balls in P.E. class without them apologizing

enough of depressing experiences and losses;

I'm sorry

I won't say why

because we both know

and we're both handling it differently

but I'm here

I'll be here for a very long time

so if you need me

just tell me

okay?

I'm here for you.

I fell

The ground didn't catch me, though

and I'm still falling

suffocating in my own sadness and grief

in shared sadness and grief, actually

except that it hit you harder

because you were closer to her

I didn't even realize how old she was

and she's not even my cat

and I didn't know her all that well

but I'm still crying

because she's not going to be there anymore

Everyone is so excited for summer

and I don't dislike them for it

but I don't understand why.

The heat is overwhelming

temperatures of 80, even 90 this year

and it's only barely June;

I am falling down

further

and further

faster

and faster

the school year is almost over-

hooray, summer-

but all of a sudden

reality crashes down on me

as powerful as a tidal wave